Wednesday, October 15, 2008

I=Saul: I Love 1 Samuel

So I don't do a lot of the "my life is bad because of X" posts these days, like I did in the old emo days at the beginning of my blogtacular life. This isn't that, by the way, so don't worry. (Actually it may be a little bit, but it's constructive and not whiny, and if it is let me know. :P) But I have really been trying to plow through some Bible lately and get a lot out of it, which I have.

I have been far too self reliant as of late, and I have been able to discover it with the help of those around me, as well as Scripture. Observe:

Saul Sacrifices Without Samuel (1 Samuel 13:8-13)
Saul: Being impatient and superstitious even, performs priestly duties out of imaptience, thus solidifying his downfall.
Me: I often get impatient with God's timing in my life. As a result, I try and work things into a schedule made by myself...and it doesn't always work for the best.

Saul's Rash Vow (1 Samuel 14:24-30)
Saul: Out of frustration Saul says that no one should eat until he is avenged. Jonathan, his son, who didn't hear him say this, ate some honey and made everyone afraid of what would happen. To which he replied "My father has troubled the land. See how my eyes have become bright because I tasted a little of this honey." (1 Samuel 14:29)
Me: I, at work, have a tendency to be very legalistic with my procedures. It is a little legitimately frustrating that people ignore the few things I ask, but after Rob redefined legalism for me at church a few weeks back, I realised I "care more about it than God does," as he put it. (The connection to Saul here being that I make demands that are personal and of no real import, essentially.) Outside of work, this applies more in the sense that I don't think before I do things. I sometimes make promises rashly, and it causes problems because they are either done without consideration of others, or not followed through to the end.

Saul Does a Selfish Version of What He's Supposed To (1 Samuel 15)
Saul: When told to complete destroy the Amelkites and everything they owned, he saw fit to spare the king as a prisoner, and take the best of what they had for Israel in what he thought was their best interests. Samuel proceeds to correct him, and kill the king as should have been done in the first place.
Me: Simply put: I don't always listen. In the basics of following God I leave Him hanging on the line...not staying in touch, so to speak. We all know that He knows what's up no matter what (obviously), but we also know that the fact is no excuse for leaving Him out of the loop.

The good news is, like I said in the beginning, the Word and folks that care about me have been keeping tabs and letting me know. So it's a good thing, and God's really working me through it all. :)


Joshua